So, I have been trying very hard to stick to my routines lately.
And today, I skipped my morning yoga workout.
I think my ‘reasons’ were really excuses. But the truth be told, I am expecting the next few days to be completely busy and exhausting and I took my chance at just taking it easy before the storm hits.
Which got me thinking…
My routines are supposed to be followed… that is true…
But there are a lot of things getting in the way that make it hard, so how best to deal with it?
My intuition is telling me to just let it go and maybe do a smaller, shorter workout this evening.
While my logical brain is busy berating me about my laziness and lack of motivation and will power.
I do not know how others can exercise willpower on days where they are sleepwalking. I know I was still asleep, until the third cup of coffee. (The rare off… usually I start the day with green tea.)
Am I doing too much, or am I doing too little?
That seems to be the perpetual confusion in my life.
The next few days, I am going to have my home taken over with tons of people and a lot of dogs…
I think the only yoga position I will be able to do, is probably corpse pose at the end of the day… hehe
So, maybe I will just let it be for the next few days. Get in stretches here and there, wherever possible. And restart my schedule in a quieter time. Rather than trying to establish habits and routines right in the middle of mayhem.
I know there are those, who will insist on just ‘powering through’. I know, because I used to be one of them.
But I think I wore myself thin at the edges and was pulled in too many directions at one time. I was also chronically irritable, cranky, had no appetite, lived on sugar and caffeine…
In the past few years, my crankiness has dropped, I no longer eat sugar if I can help it, I don’t even like how it tastes anymore, my coffee is to be enjoyed and not as a desperate measure to keep my eyes open, I eat well and eat healthy…
Perhaps, for a few days I will have no routines. But that is okay, because looking back on how far I have come in the last few years, I can see I have grown and have changed for the better.
I no longer need to punish myself to prove myself worthy.
Though I may have skipped my workout today… I have already found a balance and flexibility that I didn’t have earlier.
At the end of a day, I lead a healthy life, a happy life. My routines are to support me, not to tear me down. And my life is to be lived, really lived, not dictated by routines that become prisons.
I need strength, flexibility and balance in my life as well as my body.
Now, please excuse me, I think I am going to go for a walk. 🙂